an unquiet mind - my life, my story

My way of surviving a turbulent life in a confusing world. WELCOME TO ALL !!

Saturday, with Side-car-motocross-race........and more....!!!

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First time I was at a race like this. Looked kind alotof fun, but very noisy

and dusty.

...these are the guys who won the series.

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...a very interested spectator, with a cold one!!!

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A good day.......

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then we made a pit-stop in Nödinge, to see that Daniels kitty-cats were ok.

Lucy, Fluffiz and Sylvannas were sleeping in a cool apartment, doing just fine.

They got some food,water and loving. Even the fish got some.....!

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Stopped by Älvängens PonnyRanch, but nobody was there.

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Stopped by at a longtime friend of Kalle's, Lena B, She had a new baby boy, Hampus,

very cute.... but she was not very happy, I hope the takes us up on our offer, to come

visit us. She needs to talk to people, she seems very isolated since the baby came.....

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.....Then on to a lawn-party in Stripplekärr. Some friends of Kalle's had

a gathering. I did not know very many people there. We only stayed

for an hour.

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Got home, packed up the boat for a very short trip over the water to

the island, Lyr.

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While my heart was tying up the boat, I was supposed to hold on to

the "string" that holds the boat. I mis-stepped and fell in on the rock,

my leg landed in the sea-grass in the water. It was VERY slippery, and very dark.

I hit my head, elbow and the whole left side. I will be sore in the morning.

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The slippery spot, in day-light!!!

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A GOOD DAY.....AFTER ALL!!

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........ so sweet when he wants to be!!!

What a life......to be a kitten in our house!!!

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Play a little...

Sleep for a second...

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Sleep some more...

Piper is NOT impressed,

she spends her time outside nowadays.

And Freja hisses and snarls angrily.

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WHEN ARE THEY ALL GOING TO BE FRIENDS, I WONDER??

I THINK THIS SENTENCE SPEAKS FOR IT SELF!!!!

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..... and sadly to say..... it is true!!!!

I could not resist this temptation today!

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.....and it was soooooo good!!!!

Learning to take pics.....

Cell-Phones nowadays have alot of features that I did not know about.

Look at this nice picture........ Kalles phone did that!

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How??? This I do not know.

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YET...!! :-)

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Some wierd buttom I pushed, made the sky look like it is on fire.

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Kalle in action......! Love him, but hate him at the same time! ;-)

It is over!!!!

Moving on with my life.

Alcohol killed it all.

I am done.

Bye bye island....

... do not know when I will be back, if ever!!!

Do not know where I am going, but it will all work out

for the best....

.....Famous last words!!!!

THE   END   !!!!!

D-day, at least it feels like that!?

These things are waiting in the refrigerator..... and...

.... the rest of the gang is on stand-by on top of the refrigerator!!!

I really hate alcohol!!!!

MAYBE I WILL RUN AWAY, AND NEVER COME BACK!!!

HATE  HATE  HATE........!!!!

Shitty Ass day......!!!!

..... thought I'd try to make it better with some very nice pictures of flowers.

..... I hope it gets better now. Finally home again.... maybe I will walk down to

the dock and check on the boat!!

Freja, the watch "dog".....!!

Our kitty-cat Freja, sitting on her favorite car.

Keeping a watchful eye over the neighborhood.

Are there any dogs, cats, rabbits or snakes to chase!??

Yesterday, our neighbors dog Karla chased her up a tree.

It is time for "Fröken Freja" to realize that she is not the Queen of Halsbäck.

sea-sick.....me.....noooooo! hrm!! ;-)

The sea looks nice and green, doesn't it, so was my face sunday afternoon.

I haven't recovered yet.

Very difficult to take pictures, when the floor (deck) is moving!!!

But look at the sky, beautiful, isn't it..... I love clouds.

The view from the "port-window"

With the nice "älvsborgsbron" in the background.

BUT IT SURE IS NICE TO BE BACK ON DRY LAND AGAIN!!!!

..... A little less green in the face!!!!

MY HEART IS ON HIS WAY HOME, AGAIN!!

I am happy again, I think!

On my way to pick up "my heart".

I do not know what state he is in, he got off the boat 2 hours ago.

How many beers can you drink in 2 hours, this is the question of the day??!!

I will tell you later.......!!!! ;-)

ROXETTE---- NEED I SAY MORE?

Really terrific concert yesterday. Finally got to see them live!

I wish I had a better camera, a memory for life, this was!

Paint-box, was the name of the band playing before Roxette.

Too bad the T-shirts were so expensive, would have liked to have one.

Security was ridiculous. No umbrellas or chairs. Had to be left outside,

I thought it looked funny, so, of course I took a picture.....

.... nice collection, right?!! :-)

And, Everybody had to take the cap off their bottles. The security guard

explained it to me. A bottle with liquid in it with a cap on, is heavy and

concidered a weapon, but..... cap off= OK.... !!! :-)

feeling a bit silly today

I have to remind myself to smile.

this mood that I am in, will pass.

and the sun will again shine upon me.

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at least, this is what I have to believe,

or I will go completely NUTS.

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so... the lesson of the day is..

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REMEMBER TO SMILE

On the boat...... again!

This is the view today.......

Grey, greyer, greyest..... but that it ok with me.

My eyes don't hurt as much. The sun can be strong

sometimes, good with a day of grey, once in a while.

I am getting old. Look at this tired face.

Maybe I should take better care of me.

Good idea....but.... I am not interested.

This seems an appropriate message for the day.

But I like HELL. (stupid thing to say, really, hell is

probably a real nasty place)

My Hell is my business.....!

DID I MENTION THAT I AM BI-POLAR.......! :-)

Oslo Yesterday!!!

:-( into :-)

Beautiful Pics from Björkefall in the south of Sweden

Blue and Yellow....

Is fall here already!?

"Cranberry-bushes"

Oops!! Do not know how to turn it around.

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it is here..... finally!!!

..... my "little" pick-up-truck.

...... is now FOR SALE

Outside our house in Halsbäck, Sweden, finally!!!

The boat....still no name!!!

We, or I have a few suggestions....

EMLA

"Sluta nu"

STOPIT

Tranquility

We have not decided yet.

This is our dock-neighbors way of tying up the boat, neat isn't it?

This is our way..... !!! :-)   I like our way better.....!!

ANYWAY...

TODAY IS A GOOD DAY..... LIFE IS GOOD!!!

I am on my way to my "psykolog" now. Last time before the summerbreak. I hope I get to come

back in august again. We will see.

Maybe I am cured......NOT!!??? ;-)

I am so happy to get the help and support that I need to survive my turbulent life.

Busy, busy, busy.... the train is running at top-speed.

I desperately want to hold on to this high, and not fall down in that hole I know is

waiting around the corner..................................

Sad Today

Time to go back home! Do not know when I'll be back again!

I kind of like this view, very relaxing.

I have had a good time, most of my stay here.

Wish I could find a job here though, would be such

a great way to spend my "free" time.

Like I said, RELAXED

This door has been giving me trouble all week...

But one of the "white-shirt-people" onboard gave

me his card, so I could move around. Nice!!

So BYE BYE Stena JutlanDica

at least for this time!!!

:-)  :-)  :-)

A shitty day in "paradise"

Today is a shitty day.

I am in a bad ass mood,

nothing is going right.

Last night was a disaster,

all my fault, probably,

but I am not really sure.

Could be that I am right,

that it is time for a change.

Time to stop taking all the crap

that he is feeding me, time to

stand up for what I want, stand up

for my future, time to speak up and

be heard.

I do not believe he is hard of hearing,

he is just not interested in what I have to say.

Nothing I suggest is ok, nothing I say is remembered.

AM I SPEAKING INTO EARS THAT DO NOT WANT TO HEAR,

OR IS HE REALLY THAT STUPID???!!!

This is the question, that needs an answer TODAY!!!

Maybe it is time to take this off, and move on!!!

Today is a shitty day.... maybe tomorrow will bring me the answers.

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PA USA......i miss this sooooo much!!!!

Had a long talk with Ethel in Ronks last night. I miss America something fierce.

I think she understands me very well, she has, after all known me for over 24 years now.

I am really confused about the situation. I want to go, but I promisied to stay put, for a while

longer anyway, and I want to try to honor that promise, as best I can.

It is very hard, the desire to move away from Sweden is really strong.

But I will stay..... at least for a few more months, and then we will see, what

the situation is like.

Maybe things will change, for the better, and I will, once again, feel at home here,

and not over there.

Philosophy

Today I am filled with thoughts...

Thoughts about the past, present and the future.

My past has been filled with bumps and wierd things happening

around me. Maybe the problem is that I am wierd??!!

The fact that I feel akward (spelling) in most social situations and

am happy just to be alone, might be considered wierd by some people.

It sure is hard on my "heart", he does NOT understand, why it is

perfectly ok with me to be alone, sometimes!!

The future is so uncertain, it is driving me up the wall. But I have decided

to just focus on obvious truths, that way I can ignore things that does NOT

matter. Only 2 people know what the facts are, and the 2 of us will decide

TOGETHER what is the best road traveled for the next year.

I am very nervous and worried about what is going to happen. I am afraid

of making stupid and dumb decisions.

I know what I want.... but I am not sure it is the right way to go??

Only time will tell, right??!!

Kalle's boat..... still "no name"!

But it sure looks nice in the water....

.... and Kalle is a happy camper!

.............. no comment..........just loving that look!!! ;-)

Getting off the boat.... taking care of business, even though it is Sunday!

Today is about $$$$$

and getting alot of stuff straightened out.

First to Western Union, then find a bank and

a computor, and start paying everybody back,that has

been nice enough to lend me CASH when I needed it.

Then home to feed the kitty-cats. And spend some time

with them. They have been home alone, too much lately.

Good thing they have a "cat-ladder" so they can decide if

they want to be in- or outside.

I bet they miss laying on the couch with "daddy"!

But he will be back home on tuesday and all 3 of them

will be back on the couch!!! ;-)

Mathematics on a saturday night..... very cool, NOT!!!

My sweetie K is not very happy at the moment.

I keep telling him, Math is Fun.... but his answer

is still MATH SUCKS.

Geometry is the topic tonite...

I love it.... I am having fun,

is this allowed??

Even my IPhone is being used

as a calculator... good thing something

still works on that damned phone.

But my student is more interested in

snuff and.....

.....beer.

I guess he is right,

it is after all,

SATURDAY NIGHT!!!!

A ship passes by........on its way, far faraway!!!

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SO  VERY  NICE  !!!!

Life on-board a ferry, a visitor's view, me!!!

My "office"

Can you see the seagull?

Talk about being "free as a bird"

How I wish that was true.

I love clouds, they hide things from your eye,

then suddenly, everything clears up, and you

can see what is in front of you/above you again!

NICE

Denmark is beyond the horizon,

somewhere. Sometimes I lose track of

where we are. It only takes about 3 hrs to

cross over the water from Gothenburg to

Fredrikhavn.

Back and forth, back and forth.

At least the sea is calm today.

Stow-away-crow!

Good way to rest your wings for awhile.

This is what a brokedown engine looks like.

It has been like this for months, good thing

this ferry has 3 other engines, they are up

and running.

There are signs everywhere, all over

the engine room. So confusing, and then

again, so obvious.

Now who would enter an engineroom without

ear-plugs, take a wild guess.

ME

My ears were ringing for hours after that little

mistake.

Goes to show you, that blonds are not so smart....!!!

Who knew??

My heart, busy at work. Fixing

a hydralic pump. Messy, noisy and

hard work on over-time, just like

he wants it.

I did not know that the propellers was supposed

to be on deck??!! :-) ;-)

Just kidding, this is some kind of energy-saving device.

According to the people on board, it does not work,

it is only for show and publicity.

I don't know, They look pretty spacey to me.

Mayby the aliens put them there!!

kjh

Thank you American Express.... about time!!!

Yes, finally my money came through...

I feel rich, but only for a short time,

I have accumulated alot of debts, during

the past 3 months, so everybody is getting paid,

and I will be feeling good about myself again.

Now I go to sleep, with a smile on my face....!!!  :-)

YEEESSSSS!!!!

A day on-board stena jutlandica.

Freaky waves when we left the port in Gothenburg.

Beautiful morning sun!

I wonder what they are up to on

the bridge, a nice day like today?

Talk about a nice-size chimney.

I hope they don't fall off!!!

I would hazard a guess, that there

is no more space on tractor-trailer-deck!!!

Dreaming away, far out west!!!

Freja, our cat, the Queen of mouse-hunting!

The huntress, up-close and personal!!!

Today, our crazy cat Freja, came flying threw the front door, with a live mouse

in her mouth.

She played around with it on the living-room floor, for a while, then I got help

from K to pick it up and throw it out the door.

Damned cat, I DO NOT LIKE MICE........IN THE HOUSE.

She usually leaves them on the carpet, by my bedside, DEAD!!!!

I guess it is good to have a hunter in the house, or we would have a lot of

new "pets"......

My heart, the Mechanic....Brilliant work.

So, now my Chrysler Sebring Cab is ready for

registration Inspection this coming Friday in Mölndal.

Keep your fingers crossed, folks!!!

My sweetie K, worked hard for hours yesterday, fixing

turnsignals on the side fender. Why they need to be there

on a vehicle in Sweden, and not in the US of A, is beyond me.

But those are the rules, stupid or not.....!

Help, there is a hole in my car!!!

:-) :-)

But, when the job was finished, it looked real nice.

I hope the Inspection people will be satisfied.

My "Heart" flipping off the American flag.....!!!

He is only kidding around. He loves America, just as much as I do,

well, almost as much...... :-)

I put the flag on my Dodge Dakota, I think our neighbors was wondering why.

Who cares what they think, I have lived in the US for more than 20 years,

I feel like an american most of the time, act like one and sometimes even

think like one.  NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT....

God Bless America.....!!!!  ( now I went a little bit overboard, but I am allowed

to joke about it.....right?? )

Pin-ball-night.....

Had a good time at our neighbors house the other night.

He has a pin-ball-hall, with 13 different games.

Lots of fun.

I didn't win, but had a "ball" playing.

Too bad, the old machines from the early 80's

did not work.

I know I would have won, playing on those.

Kalle "the King of Pin-Ball" used Tilt alot.

I learned that the rule is, you are allowed to

bang, hit and curse at the game, as long as the

Tilt-Sign does not light up.

Good to know...!!! :-)

The Boat....

This is how it is supposed to be,

relaxed while cruising on the water.

Nice waves....

Beautiful sun and sky...

Then it happens, suddenly the

engine decides to quit, right in

the middle of nowhere.....

...... finally got it started again,

and SLOWLY made it towards the

shore again.

SAFE.......!!! Damn boat, it was supposed

to be a relaxing experience, a joy to own,

but I was mistaken......!

I was a good thought, though, next time I will

think twice, before buying something I know

nothing about!!!

:-(

Balder..... the new "man of the house"

This is Balder. He is 4 weeks old. He is going to join our family in

another 4 weeks.

Cute, right!!??

Since all the rest of the cats are girls, we thought that a boy-cat is

a very good idea......